Not to say it's always perfect. I wish it was. There were fights and tantrums and the usual (and not so usual) family disagreements ... a couple of bad moods and stomping around. But there was more great time on the beach with the heat of the sun turning moods around. Building sandcastles, learning to boogie board. Watching children growing in confidence and having wonderful time with friends. Lying in the sun. Little feet paddling in the water trying to catch something in the net. Quiet early morning sunrise-watching on the beach, the water warm and sandy toes. Crabs. Shells. Silence. Space to breathe in and out again.
I got to lie on a striped couch and read to my heart's content, this beautiful book by my favorite author. So fitting. Drank coffee and ate loads of ice-cream. Watched everyone go a little berry-brown and hair lightened from the sun. Got to potter around Chatham on a rainy morning, in and out of galleries and funky shops. Saw whales out at sea on a boat.
Got to reflect a little. A lot of the time i was thinking how much I love all of it - the sea, the sand and the heat. The quieter pace. How things are softer and more rounded, less sharp edges and less noise. Less frantic. How I belong somehow, there were barefoot is the norm and there is not so much reason to brush my hair every day. I wish we could buy just a little place right there and find work and sleep and read and daydream and catch our breaths, but not just on vacation. But it's enough for now that we get to go now and then, and recharge a little.
Some signs i loved along the way but didn't get to photograph:
My heart belongs by the sea.
I think that needs to be in a painting somewhere.
If you are more than barefoot, you are overdressed.
And now it's back to school and for me this time of year always feels more appropriate for new year resolutions than January does. Summer is slowly leaving and fall is on it's way. Time for new beginnings. And for me this is the time where soon both kids will be in school for at least some of the day - Lexi only for the mornings but still ... back before I had her, i had just started having time to myself - got back to painting after many many years of not. And then i was pregnant before things really got going and i knew it would be slow and all about family until she was in preschool. And now this big milestone is just around the corner. What am i going to do next ? I have been trying to keep my heart really really open, hoping something will fall into place - come clear out of the mist. That some of my questions will find answers.