Wednesday, July 3, 2013

On moving and blueberries ...

Sometimes what seems like stepping back and withdrawing a little is actually a move forward ... not a step back from but a move towards.

That's how this move has been for us. It may look from the outside like a retreat in some ways. We've moved half an hour (at least) away from our friends, from the places that feel familiar and like home after 6 years here in the States. The stores and coffee shops and knowing where to go for things. The doctors and dentists and just all our day to day lives really. A move away from, a hiding out in the countryside. A kind of disappearing act. People act as if we're moving to the moon.

But actually it's been about a move towards a simpler quieter life for the kids ... and for us. About having our own place, and we had to move further out to find what we wanted, what would feel like home. It's been about finding more green and a smaller-town way of living. A move into the new, not away from the old. If that makes sense in any kind of way.

And hard as it is to admit, it's a big step out of our comfort zone too, for us. I have always been a city girl who's seen herself as a country one, but not had to prove it much. And now there are deer ticks and poison ivy (thanks to a friend who pointed that out, see, i had no idea what it even looked like). Now there are blueberry bushes and they are growing really quickly, there is ripe fruit every day. And i love it, all of it, but i would be lying if i said i wasn't a little overwhelmed. By the newness of it all. The well instead of mains water, the private trash and recycling (which, by the way, i still have to find!). By the lack of a mailbox - how does one put one of those up ? By the woods and the trees.

But i love the green and the feeling of space around us. It's like i can breathe again for the first time in a long time. I love the house already. Even with the palm tree wallpaper and old green carpets. Yes, they'll come up, but we're taking our time. Feeling out the spaces and getting to know each other, this house and I. It takes time. We love the deck and sitting out there for our morning coffee. We love the sense of freedom that living out of the busy suburbs is giving us. We have a lot to learn. There is no doubt about that. But finally in my ripe old age I am ok with that. I am ok with not knowing everything. About having to ask questions and learn along the way. Life's a wonderful big journey and if we had it all figured out from day one it wouldn't be half as much fun, or half as much of an adventure.

So i shall learn to bake blueberry muffins and how to compost and remember to check for ticks at bathtime. And maybe this space right here will be a good place just to touch base now and then. Just a place to keep you updated and share the journey along the way. A place to write and post some photos sometimes, and nothing more than that. Just what it's always been ... a little space for me to share my day to day. But we'll see about that ... one step at a time.

Here's a little glimpse into life around here ... 

Yesterday.





Blueberry picking ...


At the Firefighter Parade, Mamaroneck ...

1 comment:

meyoucoffee said...

It looks wonderful, Silvs and I say that as someone that started shaking last week when I discovered our holiday cabin had zero 3G signal, let alone wifi!

It sounds like you're starting to love the new space. I'm so pleased. Long may it continue.